Category: the long fat ass journey

Well, I’m at 185.4, and the fact that is not more is good news. I went camping for a few days and ate hot dogs both nights, two each night, buns included.  And chips, lot’s of chips.  Baked beans.  A beer and some wine.

It was all delish and was sure I’d be back to 190, but I’ve been good since I got back, and I’m at 185.4.

Definitely, not going to get better unless I crank up the exercise. I can’t seem to bring myself to do it religiously, though, and that’s what I need.

It’s a vicious cycle. Exercise will bring energy, but I don’t have energy to exercise.

I still maybe dying too. wtf happened to me?  When did I become such a hypochondriac?  I guess once I realized that I was mortal.  I’m 47

Not much to report.  Still holding fast to the program, but the weight loss has stalled out I think. I’m at 186.  I think I’ll need to actually ramp up exercise to lose weight.

I’m not hungry though.   It’s been a trip. I wonder if wheat makes you feel hungrier?

 

Well, I’m down to 187.5 lbs.

All I’m doing is leaving out wheat, rice and sugar.  I haven’t exercised much this week. A couple of walks and that’s it for the whole week. I know I’ll have to up that as I get lighter.   Also, I’m probably eating too many nuts.

I don’t crave sugar much.  Very, very little, and when I do I have some nut mix with raisins.  But, then, maybe I’m craving plenty, because I’m eating too many nuts. I think I should drink more water too. Much more. But I don’t want to pee all the time. I hate that.

Ok, that’s the update from lake woebegone.  187.5

 

I’m failing at the daily blog thing. Don’t know why it’s hard. But, I’m not quitting. Not yet.

One great thing. 189. Actually, 188.8, but i’ve got a cheap scale, who knows.

Veggies and meat. No sugar. Or, very, very very little. I mix my plain unsweeted kefir with a flavored kind, which has sugar.  70/30 favoring plain.

And at seafood buffet with family, i know there was sugar in the sauces.  Just didn’t drink it.

No sugar, no wheat, no rice.  I do drink milk.

188

nice.

Well, doctors don’t really seem to want to dig too deep.  They brush off a lot of what you say. No wonder nothing gets diagnosed early.  Do they get paid not to run tests?  Basic blood work comes in this week, I hope.  Then during follow-up maybe I’ll get some more info.  My chest still aches.  But, it goes up and down depending upon how tired I am.

Anyway, I’ve been sticking to no sugar, no wheat.  Eating nothing but meat and veggies, and a lot more veggies. Also, sauerkraut, and kefir.  I guess I’ve got to heal myself.

Plenty of hiking or walking, and biked kids to school today.

Also, I stop eating two hours before bed.  I don’t lay down after I eat at all.  I read about GERD and maybe that’s my problem.

I’ve also lost a few pounds.  Down 9 lbs. since I began.  It has dramatically sped up though.   No too too hungry, but sometimes I am a bit.  Not bad though.

Sometimes, though, I feel really good. I hope that becomes the norm.

I go for my checkup today.  Once every 7 years, it seems.

Keep your fingers crossed. I’m sure I’ll learn nothing today though.  Maybe, if I’m lucky, they’ll let me do some tests.

more veggies!

Oh, and I’m beginning to suspect that the headaches are not a brain tumor, but caffeine withdrawal.  i think i get them at night when i’ve only had one cup of coffee the day before.

 

Ugh.

I hope it’s only a cold.  I know I have trouble swallowing sometimes, and I can feel it when I do. I hope it’s not esophageal cancer. Or lung cancer spread. Ugh. I’m not ready.

 

Monday

oatmeal

good walk

some veggie soup.  man, this stuff never goes bad. it’s two weeks old and still good. nice.  probably should make some new stuff soon though.

will eat like crap tonight. ugh.

 

I had half a burrito and an insanely delicious steak on the gig.  Thank you, Rancho Valencia!

 

I think I may be having some serious health issues.

Or I’m just paranoid because I’m 47.  It might be good to be paranoid once in a while.

Food wise, i really need to get freaking serious.